So it's about 9:30 on a Friday night, Lou is already asleep as he has to be at work in Nashville at 6 am, and I keep telling myself I am going to clean tomorrow, but we shall see if that happens. It actually has to happen.
This week has been weird. Weird in a good way and weird in a bad way. Not really sure why.
I have been really bothered by all that is going on in Iraq and stumbled across a video that I will never ever be able to erase from my mind, and cannot believe what I saw, but I know that is happening all the time and it is so hard for me to just sit here and not be able to do anything. But I have been praying. Not really knowing what to say at all, but telling God that I don't know what to say.
I was driving out of school and at a stop sign looked at FB really quick and saw all of the posts of Robin Williams death. I literally gasped and yelled NO in the car. It's just shocking!
Two, TWO!! tanker trucks carrying gasoline wrecked and exploded here around Nashville in the last few days. Not connected in any way, but still so random. One driver lost his life and I cannot imagine what the family is going through. The traffic is going to be horrendous for the next few months because it was under two bridges - one new and one old - and the new one was not complete, but they both have to be torn down. In an already horribly congested area with construction, this is going to be nightmarish for months. But someone's life was lost and it was not intentional and it could happen to anyone, so we have to remember the family and deal with what happens. Thankfully I don't have to travel this way on a daily basis, but most of the families in my program do and every back road imaginable will now become clogged with more traffic trying to fight it's way into Nashville. It's so easy to think about how our lives are going to be completely turned upside down, when this man's family is being turned upside down also. I need a new mindset.
A mom I know is battling cancer. She said I could ask for prayers for her. The chemo is making her sick and I am just heartbroken for her and her family. She has an amazing support system, but it is so hard to know she is fighting a horrible battle.
Here I am complaining that our HOA had made a new rule that we can't have our charcoal grill anymore, and there are people who are literally fighting to stay alive.
There are just so many people and situations to pray for right now. I don't even know what to pray for, but again God knows.
With school starting and all of the school supplies being out everywhere, it literally makes my heart ache. The thought of never being able to teach in my own classroom again is painful. I know there is a reason I am not in the classroom, and I know that there is something bigger and better than I could ever imagine around the corner, and I am really learning to be patient and wait. It's not easy, but what else can I do? It's not in my time.
In other news, work has been good! We started our first full week of school programming and the response has been great! I have kids whose parents come to pick them up and they are upset and don't want to go home, so the parents let them stay! Our enrollment has skyrocketed! I am truly blessed with a great staff and great kiddos and parents!
I am still washi tape cray cray and saw a roll on a fb page and looked through 35 pages of product on Etsy to find it and eventually did, but it was pennant banner/flags, so it was worth the hunt.
I got a much needed cut and color this week, and trying to be a little more brave with the cuts, so I got a cute bob, but you really can't tell, but I know so that's cool.
I showed restraint at the Wal-Mart (on a day I actually went to 3 different Wal-Marts) when wanting to buy the stuff to make new living room curtains, but knew that I needed to wait. Gotta clean first before I can make new ones. And my reasoning for going to 3 Wal-Marts in one day??? Went to the first one for work, the second one to see if they had the grosgrain ribbon decorative adhesive tape that I found at the Wal-Mart by my house (that I despise going to with all of my being), and then finally had to go to my Wal-Mart and found what I wanted. In my opinion, the best places to buy washi tape is Michael's. I'm not really sure why Hobby Lobby hasn't jumped on the bandwagon and really taken stock in that. They could make a killing! I do however get my really cute stickers there.
Trying to wrap my mind around a kind of emotional roller coaster of a week, but I know it will all be okay. It will all get figured out. That was my motto for the summer - We will figure it out. And we always did and no one suffered and all was well.
So this Friday night has been a random modge podge of stuff, but that is how my brain has been for the last week. I hope to clean tomorrow to get that out of my head and have every intention to, but after I catch up on my DVR'd episodes of Unsolved Mysteries, though I must say Robert Stack will always be my first pick for host.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!
